Best not to deal with a forked tongue snake. That I've learnt.
But I do however wonder what he's truly up to. Why would he want to pay for an iphone 5? Simply because I like iphones? As much as I like them, I can very well live without. They are only things. Dead. Lifeless. With limited novelty.
On more conjecture, perhaps it is a sign of guilt..? His feeble attempts at trying to make amends. As well as I've known him, he's a superstitious fellow. He's always quoted something along the lines of what goes around comes around. With all the evil he's done, maybe karma is swiftly honing in on him. And being the person that he is (he thinks that money can buy his way around) he's trying to disarm karma that by offering a peace in form of an iphone.
Honestly...!?! Doh!
I suppose you can't blame a man who's lived his entire life calculatively manipulating others to come up with such a feeble superficial solution. One lousy iphone for all those vengeful destructive effort to destroy my reputation!?! I know my worth. I'm certainly not cheap. He should know by now that the circle of life is deep. A complex tapestry that often times the good dollar and sense cannot unwind or solve.
I have to admit I am feeling rather smug. I've not done a thing even after all he's done. Yes, I was admittedly hopping mad. I had my moments of bewilderment. Followed by angry cursing and swearing. But other than that, I've since learnt to let go. What's the point of holding on to bitter anger? It'll only bring more grief to oneself. Besides, he can't hurt me now.
So, I can only speculate that he's finally coming to his senses that his life which is in disarray is a result of his own doing. The way he treats others - manipulate, bullies, steam rolls is returning to himself a thousand fold (so I'd like to think ...) It's no wonder 'good people' don't stay. Maybe it has finally dawn upon him that his very toxic vibe that can only attract equally toxic vibes. Hence, a troubled complicated life - where at the end of the day, he's all on his own. I did warn him a long time ago. But there's only so much a person of that mindset can understand.
On different note, I've chosen to ramble here instead for good reasons. One, is to spare someone's (usually the closest and dearest) poor ears. I've learnt that it helps any one work through issues by hearing or reading themselves think. Writing this blog to a large extent is a cathartic exercise, a sounding block, an expressive confessionary outlet. It is her I share my inner most thoughts and musings without drawing on judgement onto myself.
I also like to think I keep my rantings relatively short. Once am done, am always mindful that life should be lived forward looking. Yes, we occasionally need to look back, take stock of events and vent - like what I do here. But since we only have so much time in this world, I'd rather focus on living a fulfilling live with BFL. So onwards and upwards ... there's simply so much to look forward too here and now.
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