May. The fifth month of the year. We're effectively well past the quarter of 2013 and nearing the half way mark. Admittedly, with all that's going on I've not quite had the time to update this blog.
I've been essentially concentrating on:-
1) Job hunting and application - No luck on the permanent front just yet. It's been slow slog. Having to write job applications after job applications. One would have thought that with all the rejection I've gotten I would have build up a tough hide - becoming accustom to it's sting. I have to say, the sting of rejection doesn't quite go away. You get jaded yes ... but it still essentially sets you with the self doubting, cheerless wobbles ... the sort that makes you wonder why you even bother trying! But one must keep on trying ... after you pick yourself up that is. And it's been hard graft being back at the job hunting drawing board ... looking for suitable jobs to apply to and going through the motions of the application process.
Having said that, I am indeed grateful for this part time job I've been going to a couple times a week. It keeps me busy. Although I have to admit, it's not quite as interesting and challenging as it once was. My days, I have to say are numbered. And there's only so much one can do in that small company that is very much set in their ways.
2) Social 'integration' - this is the fun part of life. Meeting up with friends. Old and new. Had dim sum with old school mates in London on Sunday. It was good to catch up and meet some of their own friends. Picnic in the park. More hanging out and girl chats over chips. Life couldn't be better ... though I can't say BFL found it all very invigorating. He fell asleep on the picnic blanket while we yakked away. Good boy.
3) Couple explorations - we spent the bank holiday Monday (supposedly the British version of Labour day) exploring south east london. Beginning with the O2 centre, the Emirates Cable car into Royal Victoria Docks - more docklands in the midst of being regentrified and redeveloped. It was fascinating roaming the East London - an area we hardly go into. Quite by accident (having taken the wrong train) discovered where UEL is. I don't believe we've ever gone so far east!
Back on tracks, we ventured back into Greenwich - which is a place we both like, for a spot of lunch and some browsing. I half expected to bump into AC - that being her neck of the woods. And it was her after all that first introduced me to where Greenwich was.
AC - I do wonder about her and her partner sometimes. Often relief follows. Glad that I no longer have to answer to her dominating ways. Glad I no longer have to please her and J. It's sad, but I am rather glad we are no longer in touch - because if we did, she would be one tough aunt to please and I'd always feel guiltily obligated for her doing what she did for me when I first arrived. It's not that I'm being ungrateful. I am grateful and always will be. But one must move on. She has shown her true colours. It was not for the sake of wanting to see me succeed but more of the fact of wanting to control my life and be smug about being better than me. I've nothing against anyone being better than I am - but to do it on purpose and be a stumbling block to others is not exactly what I would define as 'good deeds'. Life's too short to waste it over trying to please toxic people. Move on, we must.
And there we have it. In a nutshell. What i've been up to since end of April and the beginning of May. Moving onwards - into this beautiful spring days. Hopefully the bright, dry days would last ... and we'd have a proper spring and summer this year. :)
For the mean time, over and out! :)
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