Marked shift...

On some days the realisation that this is now my country of residence hits me with greater intensity.  Today for instance, where clear signs of spring finally emerges after nearly six months of winter made me realise that I would for the next half of my life will always have the rich variety of four seasons.  To enjoy the hope and blossoms that each spring brings without wondering at the back of my mind when I'd ever experience spring again marked a significant shift in mindset.  So this is how it 'feels' to live here as oppose to being a student.

I have to admit, this is a marked shift in mindset.  It's not one I've experienced before and to be honest, it's also one that I constantly struggle with.  On some days, like today, better than other days.  Admittedly, it's not always going to be a walk in the park - as seen from the last few anxious months of waiting in limbo for my spouse visa.  However, at the core remains that of gleeful excitement and a deepest sense of gratitude.  Every cloud as a silver lining.  Even in those uncertain days of not knowing whether I would be given permission to stay or not, there were hopeful events that gave us much encouragement to look forward.  If I could surmise that in one word, it would be joy.  The joy of new beginnings.  The joys of hope.  The joys of love and being loved.

I am certain that with the passing of each day, this 'new country of residence' that still sits rather awkwardly in my psyche (particularly when I fill in formal forms) will eventually become easier to assume.

In the mean time, that simple biometric identity card clearly stating my legal status and rights has marked a world of a difference in our lives.  For one, it has given us (me especially) a peace of mind.  Furthermore, with passports returned this means our freedoms have also been restored.  To celebrate BFL has decided to take me to Florence for a long weekend.  Isn't he just wonderful?