Impatience

I am admittedly rather impatient.  Immersed in my own 'timeline' of plans - when progress does not pan out in the pace expected, it frustrates me to no end.  I'm also not the most patient when it comes to waiting for certain outcomes.  One good example is this spouse visa application.  Yet in the same stride, I'm most patient when it comes to cooking and baking.  Like the 'Vegetarian Tagine' I made this evening for dinner I embrace the fact that progress cannot be hurried.  Instead of being stressed over how slowly things are panning out, I lose myself in those moments of creation and savour the fact that each stage takes shape in its own time.  I am for a change at one with the age old adage of 'good things come to those who wait ...'

Now why can't that translate more into dealing with everyday situations?! Waiting for the outcome of my visa would be less stressful.  Or even the process of finding a full time job.  On the more inane aspects like discovering I've got to wait a week/month/year for the next episode/sequel of a TV series/movie that have captured my imagination would be a good deal less angst ladened.  I'd skip the highly charged 'WHAT?! I have to wait a (week/month/year) just to find out what happens next?! NOOOoooo!' to that stage of zen 'Come what may ...'

This leads me to the next admission - that I am 'flappable' - usually over things that has captured my concentration.  Like an obsessive compulsive, I can't bear to let go until I get to the end of things.  Call it determination, stubbornness ... this can be both a strength and a weakness.

On that note, the last few days have been spent watching two seasons of 'Once upon a time'.  Yes, two seasons in one sitting.  I live, eat, breathe 'Once Upon A Time' - a modern take on my favourite fairy tales.  Talk about being smugly content!  Particularly to be spared the angst of having to wait a week before the next episode.  But now that I've reached the last episode of the second season I've discovered that I now have to wait for the next season to confirm whether my 'deductions' are spot on or not ... When that will be, no one knows just yet (NOOOOOOooooo!!!!)

It's a relief to note tomorrow is a working day.  I'd have to distract myself from my square-eyed indulgences and concentrate on more gainful activities.  CIF, BOL - here I come!