Going the distance ...

Onwards. Upwards.  That's what this blog is about.  It captures not only minutea of daily excitement and challenges and but also reflective observation of life per se.

My name is G.  I've just turn 36.  I've often maintain I'll always be 28 since taking note on each birthday the accumulation of 'numbers' is rather disconcerting (i.e. What?! I'm how old ..? Nooo! It can't be ...!!).  Often, that rant eventually veers down the route of silent reflection and contemplation. I call it the 'what-have-I-done-with-my-life-so-far...?'

And if you're like me - that is, I am my own harshest critic, a certain melancholy often accompanies this contemplation.  A regret, wishing things were different.  Wishing I had been wiser. Most of all, wishing I had not have wasted so much time on what turned out to be toxic relationship ventures.  A decade was much too long ...

All that said upon the vantage of hindsight. Had I been less harsh, I would argue consolingly that one did the best given the circumstances then. 

I'm now effectively in my late thirties.  I suppose the older one is, one no longer nurses the illusion that one has time to deliberately ignore what needs to be done.  Life is short.  We all have dreams we hope to attain.  

Going this distance has not been without its challenges.  Some tested me to almost breaking point. Yet, I won't discount any of those moments.  Challenging as it had been, it is these hard experiences that are our best teachers.   Had it not also been for family and good friends, I wouldn't be where I am today. 

Essentially, that is what life is about.  Family and friends. And the wisdom to choose options that would make one content-fully happy.

Two and a half years on, I've learnt three main things that hopefully would see me through this journey through life.   Firstly, that there is indeed hope. Provided that one holds on to that believe that it WILL get better no matter how bleak things seemed/s. Secondly, forgiveness.  For only then one can have closure and truly move on.  Finally, to be kind to oneself - especially when we mess up.  As determined as I am now to make each moment count, I am also fully aware of my weaknesses and my fallibilities.

So, even if I goof up.  It is ok to be upset and brood things over. But, as time waits for no man (or woman for that matter!) one must always remember to go the distance. Aiming upwards and onwards...