Monday, 12 August 2013

Memorial and beyond


Mum's memorial service was last Thursday.  8th August 2013.  Seven weeks the day she died.  It turned out beautifully.  Nearly 200 people came.  I had a chance to be introduced to family and friends.  It was rather funny too that ... my being the only other Oriental in the fray (the other being one of Hugo's oldest friend's wife who's Korean).  Its interesting too how life comes in circle.  Mum considered one of her happiest times abroad was in Malaya (inspite of the communist insurgency).  Many years later, a Malaysian makes her way to UK (for a spell).  Hoping to herself in a country she's spent her happiest years.  Little did she know that that she would end up staying ....

Life, and its circles.  Who would have known ... ?  Only with hindsight, one realises how even with the most seemingly 'sporadic of spurious correlations' that we are indeed more linked to each other than we care to think.

Coincidences?  Or was it a purposeful design?  When I reflect upon Mum's life, I not only marvel at what an amazing life she's led and with such grace and resilience too.  She will be my inspiration on moving onwards and upwards despite the odds.  She was told after being shot by terrorist that she would not be able to bear any children ... yet she's born two.  Miracles from God ... one of which is BFL. 

If I look back upon how life have led up to this moment.  Meeting BFL.  Falling in love.  Getting married and Mum happily having finally witnessed her son marrying his love match in her - the chances of what had been is probably closer to nil than it would be what it presently is.  All by the grace of God go we.  All by God's amazing and abundant blessings we come under ...

The good Canon who married us was initially deign to give mum's eulogy.  Mum had always wanted that.  She was more than thrilled he was asked to marry us instead on that funny round about way we got engaged last year and interestingly married on the same day where Archangels feasted.  Michaelmas day - where the greatest of Archangels is honored in defeating Lucifer in the way of heaven.  Who would have known ...?

I don't think the warring has stopped but the decision to follow God has certainly been the best decision I've made my entire life.  Although to be honest, there were moments where I did seriously doubt if things were going to pan out ... but almost always it's worked out well beyond what I can imagine. 

I once pointed out in one of my earlier blogs that I'm living my dreams with my eyes wide open ...
And even if some days can be more trying than others - I still have much to be grateful for.  BFL.  Family.  Good friends.  Even great opportunities where many locals simply don't have.  So here's to onwards and upwards ... and to divine encouragement (however that may materialise)
when times get hard.






Tuesday, 6 August 2013

A quiet lull ...

My bad.  I've not been posting.  Mainly because there's work to reckon with and come evening there's much to be done (cooking, cleaning) or wanting to simply relax.  

The young prima donna have toned down a notch.  However not before she insinuated that I had annoyed people using her name via the phone or emails.  Not once but twice.  Uncomfortable as it was, I thank God He saw me through.  The power of prayer.  I no longer bristle with her accusations.  Rude, unbecoming behaviour has since been embodied in her name.  Sadly though ... it was a pretty name.  Just the person fraught by insecurities reacting by being aggressive.

I prayed for favour. I prayed too that God will show me a way of dealing effectively with this bullying behaviour.  He provided me a way to distance myself.  Interestingly, all via her doing.  She assigned me to manage the diaries of the HR and Finance Director whom I now work quite closely with given the increased volume of work that needs to be done and loom deadlines.

On yet another front, I had an interview last week with a well established institute that deals in the area that I am interested in.  They said I would know by this week.  So we will see.  Fingers crossed.  The darling BFL has been praying really hard that I would get this new job - having heard my daily tales of 'S' negative behaviour towards yours truly.

It will all turn out well at the end - so that's my hope.  God has already promised to that His aim is to prosper us ... and I believe it will be so.